i am
wendy
by the
window
u are
peter
incognito
lull me
deeper
into
neverland
a sleeper
walking
foreign
lands with
outstretched
hands
i’d
follow
ure
shadow
anywhere
u ever dare
to take
me
by
flash
light
or
fire
light
tinker
bell
or
winged
sprite
lead me
directly
into
temptation
guide me
swiftly
without
trepidation
into the
darkest
corners
of time
bind
ure ribbons
around my
waist
ure
willing
traveler
for just
a taste
of ure
spirited
kiss
i’d
contort
&
twist
&
shape
to fit
any
circumstance
ure
erotic
trance
will
bid of
me
hunt
me
gather
me
ravage
me
voraciously
by the
unkempt
fires
of my
unquenchable
desire
for
u

leather
bitten
bound
&
stricken
w/ this
taboo
memory
of u
history
recalling
me
back
to that
shadowy
world
presently
unfurled
by the
curl
of ure
whispering
voice
with one
finger
over my
lips
it
plucks
such
songs
from my
hair
ensnared
in that
clever
trap
i’ve fallen
in before
once
adored
twice
regarded
at heart
in lust
i trust
i must
obey
the law
that
u have
written
smitten
by
patchouli
&
prose
transpose
me
into the
perfect
key to
set me
free
of this
detestable
need for
prolific
suffer

b
r
o
o
d
y
brother

m
o
o
d
y
lover

i’m
tongue
stopped
brain
lopped
at the
stem

-again

oh
kiss me
again

nite
fishing
on
opposite
bays
catching
our
hands
in that
old
familiar
way
casting
our lots
into the
unknowable
pool
with
silent
exchanges
&
placid
moods
u clung
to me
frayed
wanting
to be
bound
i hung
to u
dazed
wanting
to be
found
the
sound of
stillness
sprinkling
between
the
longitudes
&
platitudes
&
luminous
beams
of dawn
approaching
to lite
the sky
our lanterns
are dimming
terrains
left to
climb
our lips
are swimming
in the
luxury
of
time
the
moment
entwined
beyond
reason
or
rhyme
an
accidental
meeting
if
memory
serves
a buddhist
a sadist
a pretty
can of
worms

on a
hidden
beach
i will
ravish
u
with my
feral
locks
i will
lavish
u
with my
idolatry
easily
sinking
into the
infinite
space
between
the
grains
of sand
adoring
ure
relaxing
frame
leave this
october chill
behind us
the sunlite
will remind
us
how to
bask
in each
other’s
laughter
with
unadorned
frivolity
let’s
climb
the trees
&
labor in
love
with
the surf
beneath us
the heavens
above
will
conceal
us in
perfect
obscurity
bathe
with me
in the
salty tide
escape
with me
throw
autumn
aside
peel off
ure layers
make no
delay
our
hidden
beach
is a
kiss
away

BURN
IT
ALL
the cards
u guard
so close
to ure
chest
can not
conceal
can not
arrest
this
inexplicable
tragedy
remember me
vividly
this
dragon
guzzling
gasoline
remember me
the
fiery
fiend
fueling ure
hatred
of me
‘til u
have what
u need
to be
finally
freed
to sleep
deeply
able to
see
there was
no prize
in me
after all
the small
seductive
creature
signed
sealed
delivered
darkening
ure door
with all
that i am
reckless
impulsive
impetuous
repulsive
in my
pleasantly
delightful
&
spiteful
way
another brick
in ure wall
an honest
mistake
DESTROY IT
ALL
employ it
all
to
eradicate
the
memory
of
ure
succubus
ure
concubine
ure
venus fly trap
w/ venomous
vines
wilted
broken
stilted
choking
on the
truth
u will
never
tell

oh
spin me
again
in ure
web of
lies
& those
pretty
eyes that
paralyze
me
oh
spin me
again
with that
drunken grin
in a glass of
“ure beautiful”
& tonic
& gin
oh
spin me
‘round
giddy
with ure
dulcet
deceits
tell me
i’m perfect
that i’m
all that u
need
unable
to read
between
the lines
blind to
the truth
that i’m
rotted
fruit
once
bitten
thrice
shy
&
now
rebuked
for my
sickening
sweetness
that makes
u distressed
TAKE ME
BACK
to square
one
back
to the
fun
when u
kept to the
script
without
moving
ure lips
oh
spin me
some
more
so i
won’t
cry
any
more
for
that
spilt
milk
on the
floor
that
will
never
ever
dry

ures
is the
only
mouth
i want
to feed
eat me.
drink me.
feel me.
fear me.
fear this
intimacy
i carry
w/ me
that
doesn’t
need u
to tell me
where i
want to
be
even now
u sleep
beside me
when
u’d
rather be
alone
while i
bemoan
my outcast
state
w/ quiet sighs
& mournful hate
for never
being able
to be
“enough”
entrusted w/
ure sullen
wit
i imagine
we’ll dance
forever
like this:
apart
but
together
prelude
to a kiss
or
stormy
weather
i derive
no pleasure
from loving
alone
useless
unwanted
a voice
on a phone
condensing
my universe
at the
sound of
the tone
give me
purpose
to this
fever
in my
bones
that shrieks
that delights
in the
scraps
i am
thrown
NOURISH ME.
COMFORT ME.
FEED ME.
the intimacy
i need
for me
or please

leave.

me.

be.

ure
fragrant
sweat
adorns
my
pillow
the
wallpaper
speaks
ure
name
dream-like
images
crawl
towards
the ceiling
reeling
in agony
dancing
in shame
i am
too
consumed
by
thoughts
of u
& ure
piercing
eyes
to surmise
where i’m
going
or where
i’ve been
singed
by
ure
line
drawing
infecting
my skin
indelible
sketches
of our
latest
sin
leaching
thru my
pores
like
bubbling
sores
with
scores of
places
needing
ure
curative
tongue
come
heal me
again
from this
boiling
tirade
frothy
&
thick
&
shiny
&
slick
this
sickness
that
drips
from
my
lips
caramelizing
between
us
into
every
thing
u
ever
want

to

feel

i’m
free
as a
lark
don’t
cage me
in
w/ promises
of
luxury
& protection
from the
wind
i made
my own
nest
for seasons
to come
blessed by
the
rain
&
tamed by
the
sun
don’t tempt
me
fickle boy
w/ ure
delectable
treats
only to cast
me
onto the
street
once ure
fancy wanes
& the moon
changes
peaks
let me
sing
for u
softly
from my
hallowed
retreat
i can coax
from my throat
any sound
that u
ask
ure
willing
songstress
awaits the
task
so please
cut this
ribbon
tied to my
feet
my sprit is
broken
i feel too
weak
i’ve lost sight
of the crumbs
back to my
perch
back to my
altar
back to my
church
if i promise
to stay
will it
comfort u
will u
sweep me
away
in ure
tearful
monsoon
to sing of
our sorrows
happily
in
tune
as
two
untamed
birds
with
volumes
to
croon

my
appetite
grows
for u
a
bottomless
pit
descend
into it
explore
me
further
see me
for more
than just
my
sex
more
than just
a
woman
simply
complex
from the
braided lines
that
grace my
palms
to the
weathered skin
my skeleton
dons
i am
clusters
&
fragments
of delicate
places
hollows
&
caverns
longing for
traces
of ure
slightest touch
or
fevered attack
come
unlock
the
secrets
of the
arch
in my
back
undress my
existence
embrace my
worth
a legend
ever changing
since the
moment of
birth
a history
of scars
of wrinkles
of peaks
of valleys
of oceans
of dimples
of cheeks
i am
limitless
horizons
not yet
recognized

i stand
naked
before u

just

open
ure
eyes

this
is ure
creation
of
shimmering
sensation
a wild
electric
masterpiece
humming
w/ glorious
tones
ure willing
instrument
ure grand
experiment
hungry to be
composed
ure color
is my
drug
let me
be ure
junkie
ure
dedicated
flunkie
malleable
to ure
whim
a slave
to the sin
of ure
brilliant
strokes
ure mouth
stoked
this fire
ure hands
sculpt
desires
that crave
every
fraction
of ure
delicate
attention
w/ gentle
direction
i straddle
ure affections
surrendering
to ure
measures
of rhythmic
pleasures
that
errode
my
being
&
devastate
my
flesh
erupting
&
falling
i am
vaporized
refreshed
an omniscient
impression
demolished
impressed
like this
languid
metaphor

d
i
s
s
o
l
v
i
n
g

i
n
t
o

no
thing
ness

i can be
ure
dirty
pretty
thing
&
u can love
every
little
thing
about me
fancy
my volatile
lips
fancy
my dangerous
hips
that
slip
&
dip
for ure
private
pleasure
treasure
the feel
as ure
heart reels
in
drink & delight
despite
all the
things
u think
are right
SAVE
URESELF
from my
tender
torment
FREE
URESELF
from this
childish
torrent
of curious
emotions
clothed in
repulsion
&
guilt
&
shame
&
erroneous
blame
RUN
AWAY
from
my siren song
my open plams
my awkward heart
bleeding
for
u
-it’s
-all
-too
-much
it’s
such
a
rush
my
cherry
stained
mouth
can make
u forget
& regret
ure time
away
pay ure fare
hop the ride
it’s safe inside
if u wanna hide

come on

give me
ure
hand

spread
deep
the love
i spread
hardly returned
spread heartily
like
pb&j
that u devour
easily
between
2 slices of my heart
munching away
eagerly
licking
each
finger
clean
of
me
did u ever stop
to wonder
about that
wonder bread
u were using
to scoop me up
& gulp me down
a love
i did not invite
a loss
i did not delight
a sorrow
that offered
no foresight
but
i’ll try again
with
someone
else
don’t u see
there’s no
stopping me
i have been
the tangy
in between
the fresh
tomato
the crispy
green
the miracle
in
his
whip
ure not the first
to lose my attentions
to regret my affections
to fail the inspection
of what ure
all about
i hope
u know too
i hope
u learned to
savor my
flavor
before u
soured ure
power
once
i am lost
to u
& u swallow
& digest
& u wallow
in distress
missing me
u’ll try again
with
someone
else
then
u’ll see
everyone else
is just
a
‘sammich’

this
velvet sky
anoints
me
i am
encircled
entranced
beckoned to
dance
as the
universe
pulsates
w/in me
u
woodland god
u
starry eyed satyr
take me to
ure temple
where the
emerald moss
grows
to cushion the
blows
of this
-so
-called
-life
i am ure
sprite
ure verdant
nymph
twirling
thru the
brush
grown lush
w/ ure ancient
sadness
stripped
of modesty
drenched
in honesty
i swear
my allegiance
to the
odyssey
between
us
tighten
ure vines
& wind them
around me
surround me
embrace me
lay waste to me
spiral & coil
thru
granite & soil
rein me in
past the
thorny brush
that protects
u
encase this
mystery
from the lite
of the
moon
swoon
plummet
lunge
pitch
deeply
into this
dream
deeper
into this
mystery
inter-
twined
our seeds
bloom
in
ecstasy

my
mouth
opens
wider
bursting
exploding
like the
sky afire
spitting
imploding
molten sparks
& ashen spirals
harking disaster
seeking
answers
what sin
have i
committed
what fact
have i
omitted
in my quest
for this
bliss
why did u
court me
why did u
sort me
out of the
maze
of women
dazed & driven
to be matched
w/ a man
like
u
are u satisfied
- love
have u quantified
- love
all my displays
of devotion
&
pathetic notions
of humble
affections
tossed in ure
direction
how else
should this
obedient heart
dance
for
u
elude me
no longer
hide me
no longer
from ure
beautiful face
lay waste
to the terrain
between us
map my territory
stake ure claim
to this
generous prize
who stains
her eyes
black as nite
& rises
& sighs
with
out
u

find me
bind me
turn me
over
sign me

I AM
URES

indelibly

paint me
delicious
ure
golden apple
ure
pomegranate seeds
i need
to be
devoured
deflowered
of all my
mystery
come back
to me
pluck
from me
the fruits
of my
fervent
desires
the
witching hour
brings to power
the dream
w/in
ure dreams
murmurs
at nite
emerge
in flight
like
ravens
swarming
swooping
calling
to me
the hidden
messages
presages
of a life
still
to
come
s
l
e
e
p
my
mayan
fleshed
dreamer
this ancient
unrest
weighs
on ure chest
heavier
than
i
ever
could
the seeds
are planted
ure wishes
all granted
& i shall be
sown no more
seek no more
weep no more
in sorrowful scorn
i am
re
born
razed
renewed
ripe
in bloom
w/ penance
& pardons

blossoming

for
u

in
our

s
e
c
r
e
t

garden

i
a
wait

sus
pen
ded

in no
thing
ness

my
frag
ment
ed
dis
tress
es

aim
less
con
fess
ions
adrift
in the
midst
of
such
lu
cid
ity

what is
happ
ening
to me

a fly
trap
ped
in honey
& flattery
in
tox
icat
ing
sy
coph
ancy

breath
less
yawn
ing
cavern
ous
long
ing
to
touch
u

eman
cipate
exon
erate
vind
icate
me
with ure
tender
ab
solu
tion

i
a
wait

spell
bound

captive

rapt
in the
mad
ness
of a
wish

we
kiss

*ssssssssssssss

my ghost
orchid
my hidden
gem
the
skeleton
that haunts
my deepest
closet
my constant
projection
of perfection
rattling
inflections
of my
shame
my secret
longing
who keeps
belonging
to
another
more worthy
than
i
could
ever be
u
could never
see
how i
came to be
so
painfully aware
i’ll never compare
to the phantom
i used to
be
all
my truths
come back
to u
i am
destined
to drown
destined
to crown
my worthless head
w/ thorns
&
wire
&
scorn
&
fire
&
mournful cries
i have
no alibis
I
FAILED
U
derailed
our
happy union
w/ delusions
of grandeur
w/ another
no picture book
ending
no realities
bending
to suit
my deepest
desires
oh
cherished
one
our glorious sun
has set
never to dawn
again on our
laughter
my
regret
my
remorse
my
shameful
disaster
keeps me
chasing shadows
of our
happily
never
after

(circa 2003)

PACK
URE
SHIT
& get out
of my mind
i grind my teeth
at the thought
of u
look at me
broken
limp
wounded
hit
twice
by the same arrow
the marrow of my bones
loosened
with grief
I
SEEK
RELIEF
u liar
u thief
i'm tired of
missing u
& ure insecurity
missing u
& ure insincerity
missing u
& ure ability
to fool me
into thinking
i was
special
well
birds of a feather
may fuck together
but two wrongs
don't make
a right
i'm too tired
to fight
my weathered heart
is somber
no spark
to love again
to hurt again
to hope again
that u'll hear me
clearly
between my gasps for breath
so
go
take ure precious
"space"
clear ure precious
"head"
leave me for dead
in this emptiness
follow the
yellow brick road
before u
towards the emerald city
of peace & quiet
without me

happily

here's hoping
no one drops
a house
on u

the
wild haired
woman
child
who
kissed the
boys
& made
a pile
of broken
spirits
&
empty
dreams
strung
w/ opals
&
velveteen
draped upon
her naked
back
to soothe her
ache
& heal the
lack
of dedicated
honorable
men
who break
in her wake
before she
counts
"ten"

tounge
tied
terrified
mystified
that u
ever tried
to understand me
at
all
I
HAVE
NO
ANSWERS
i speak
no lies
i can
only cry
within myself
for mercy
do u think
this is easy
i’m sick
i’m queasy
i’m weak
i’m easily
fooled
trampled
wooed
all in
one
breath
GO AWAY
& take ure
distrust
with
u
i can’t convince u
otherwise
i can’t succinctly
surmise
the surprise I felt
when u came

then

left

so
leave me
again
with my shame
my bewilderment
my fame
in being
an overzealous
creature
too
wild
to
pursue
i
mangled my
good intentions
with
misconceptions
of what u
should
& should not
feel
burdened u
w/ foolish ambitions
tedious situations
superfluous
intimidations
all
for
want
of being
MORE
i wanted to be
more
than therapy
more
than coffee
more
than happenstance
more
than circumstance
more
than habit
more
than a tease
i wanted
u
to think
i was
much
MUCH
more
than just

me

i am
swollen
with fear
eyes bulging
understanding
that i
do not
understand
at all
i bawl
w/ out warning
forlorned
swarming
this darkness
buzzing around me
disrepaired
emotions
gathering
like dust in the cracks
of my mind
i awake
beneath the weight
of my thoughts
rank
like spoiled meat
i greet my sadness
wordlessly
oh
tell me more
about ure eyes
but
STOP
SEARCHING
MINE
i’m afraid
of what u’ll find
just let me cry
until the poison
bleeds
out
of me
bruised
shades
of
anguish
welling up
inside
of me
these
ancient
amalgamated distresses
depressing me so
stressing me so
that ure memory blinds me
ure tenderness pains me
like a delicate wound
i ache to soothe
to no avail
i wail
inside myself
howling
to the bluest moon
seeking refuge
in our
forgotten
place
cloaked in silence
i wade thru my darkness
quietly
come
sit by me
& let’s ease the suffer
of endless nite
thru our
imagined
embrace

beckon me
my
worthy man
when all else fails u
ure silent witness
to all that ails u
i only want
to bring u peace
i only want
to be the least
of ure worries
when life is hurried
& hasty
& harried
& nary
a moment
can be
spared
find
me
here
stumble
into my arms
find solace
in our quiet charm
the happenstance
that brought u here
the winds of chance
that calls us near
memories
of
poetry
whispered
between
us
beloved man
i understand
ure absence
i realize
i sympathize
but what use
am i
without u
i sigh
i weep
i die
i seek
to know
what ure
intentions
are
u've left me
scarred
my safety
jarred
ure tempest
has tossed me
ure silence
has caused me
nothing
but
heartache
w/ every daybreak
that passes
i hang my head
in quiet dread
w/out the courage
to raise my eyes
& recognize

ure

already

gone

the
moment
u turn
ure back
my mind is off
& running
w/ daisy chains
swinging from her hair
lying in fields
of endless moonlite
basking
in the glow
of the
mere
thought
of u
purest thoughts
while she
envisions u
spread eagle
tied down to the posts
golden heart
as she inches up her skirt
& climbs into
ure backseat
laughing sweetly
into herself
roaming the velvet sky
my mind
is wandering
her chestnut tresses
tossled
among
her
photos
of u
virginal desires
watching herself
swirling in darkness
dancing naked
on ure lawn
innocent musings
as she
holds herself
close enuff
to share ure breath
guiltless nymph
she conjures a smile
onto my face
easing me gently
into reality
as i go
w/ the flow
of a
disinterested
disguise
oh
do what u will
to me
but
let her have
her dreams
&
whatever u decide
just
don't
turn
around

wicked
tounge
flicker
by
starlite
groping angel
pacify my qualms
with ure
vanilla scented
hands
stroke the worries
out of my
hair
bathe me
in
sweetest intentions
lofty perceptions
stories of deception
by that girl
w/ the silken
hair
i
ooze
like
hot
wax
into
ure lap
down
onto the leather seats
ure
hisses
a hot knife
thru butter
i
spread
gently
drizzled
w/ ure
exquisite sighs
i
compromise
all ties
w/ reality
for a nite
spinning
in ure
orbit
i ride the back
of a meteor
& remain
unshaken
until u
retrieve me
still
i feel
i can not quench
the thirst
of ure kisses
yet
i am
poured
drawn
an emptied vessel
happily
streaming
into
u
quell
ure temper
love
if dawn comes too soon
& our broken melodies
turn
into daily overtures
the scorching sun
will ease it’s glare
& then
delicious obscurity will hold us
titely
w/ the stars
for a blanket
& my bosom
for
rest

my skin
throbs
for u
i am
wild
ecstatic
pure electricity
waiting for
a current
waiting for
u
waiting for
a spark
that will incinerate
my thoughts
until i only see
hear
feel
our smoky
charred
lust
my pores
scream
for u
i
am
fever
vigor
eternal fire eating myself
whole
eating myself
empty
turning inside out
from the thought
of
u
a kiss
a touch
a wink
has such
awe inspiring
body entangling
soul strangling
power
over me
i am waiting
for the skies to open
for ure kiss to deepen
for my eyes to blacken
for my breath to quicken
animated
for u
i come to life
in ure arms
keep pulling my strings
make me believe
that i have
purpose
make me see
that i have
deliverance
from
me
i want to see
my reflection
in our pool
of sweat
swim
in the waters
capture
our
sighs
in
a
magick
box
fill my core
with ure flood
so there is no place
for my nitemares to hide
take
command
of my psyche
with ure passion
til
i
forget
who
i
am
embed ure every whim
into my every crevice
tunnel thru my deepest
emotion
saturate
my
flesh

please

i don't
want
to smell
like

me

any

more

oh
to be
an
inchworm
measuring
ure inner
soul
plotting out
the
place to go
where
logic
never finds
us
where
fever lies
where
happy sighs
are
lullabies
to grant us
time
to creep
inside
of each other’s
mind
&
climb
into bed
(again)
oh
to be
an
inchworm
delving deep
into
the folds
to the
place
that makes
men
bold
&
scold
their childish
heart
for fearing
the
dark
corners
left
un-illuminated
by
other
bugs
oh
to be
an
inchworm
&
inch
my way
back to
u
to
tossle my
hair
&
meet ure
stare
&
dare
to
care
fondly
deeply
sweetly
if only
(steadily)
inch
by
inch

by

inch

this space
round my waist
has a vacancy
now
the time
is mine
alone
to roam the landscapes
of my mind
w/out
a safety line
to
stand
in the rain
baptized
tears streaming
body leaning
into the invisible arms of
destiny
warming me
warning me
against
over analytical inventions
post hypnotic suggestions
i will not harken to
i will not weaken to
i will not succumb to
becoming numb
I THRIVE
on being
alive
FEELING
thru these
memories
they are
a part of me now
Zen to me now
i wish
i could
show u how
not to
tuck them away
into ure secret place
where the echoes go
don't
hide them away
where the bruises go
deep inside
where the darkness contorts
the 'now'
with
the 'long ago'
i know
i made u go there
i know
i made u show where
u still
bleed
eternally
i broke ure laws
against digging deep
i made u raw
& made u steep
in
endless talks
&
passionate chances
&
blissful nites
&
fevered glances
&
wishes
that u never touched me
at all
i fall
our electricity spent
intentions well meant
wondering where
all the time went
i lie
dazed
by the collision
&
somehow
have risen
scarcely
strong enuff
to kiss
u
goodbye

a
stretched
canvas
i lie before u
free this
tortured soul that hides
within me
ochre
umber
verdigris
stroke the meaning
of my silence
across this
empty space
i scream
i bleed
i teem with
sickness
this
stinking richness
destroys me
a sullen salve
of
forget-me-nots
poisons me
&
sends to rot
my most beautiful
memories
grind
ure
palette
anew
glistening minerals
laid out for u
pulverize
this
melancholy
that
swallows me
in
hopeless blackness
suffering
in
velvet darkness
when u go
away

COME

dress
this
gorgeous
sadness
open this gift
tear
at my seams
free me
as an oyster
releases its
pearl
see me
deep inside
a scared little
girl
afraid
it’s
written
all over
her face
a
love
letter
written in sighs
for ure eyes
only
i
shimmer
in sparkling
disaster
a muse
awaiting the hand
of a loving
master
to
sculpt
her
joyful
again

ure mind is racing
faster
than the speed
of
feel
surrounded
by thoughts
theories of others
who squeeze life
DEAD
in their
analytical grasps
I
AM
GASPING
for
love
fainting
screaming
wanting
reeling
for
u
CAN U HEAR ME?
my eyes
send smoke signals
my heart
pumps morse code
my fingers
swirl a symphony
along ure spine
forget what ure past
says
the ink on the page
will fade
someday
u
waste
the here
& now
HOLD ME TIGHTER
pour me wine
don’t analyze
the degrees of my flesh
don’t scrutinize
the rise of my thighs
& why
i flush
& why
i die
& why
ure sighs
make me high
just
be
just
see
just
hear
just
FEEL
& seal the deal
w/ another kiss
until our lips
can not sense
time
closing in on us
how can u
misconstrue
my motives for u
as i sit here
straddling u
i can
justify
clarify
simplify
tantalize ure heart
w/ a dozen cards & poems
just
like
this one
BUT I CAN NOT FIGHT URE MIND
please
disconnect those wires
satisfy the desires
that lie between us

pull back the covers

heart
&
head
can never
be
lovers

where
did
u
come
from
i thought myself
numb
to this
possibility
are
u
loving
me
the way
i should
be
how can this be
feasible
be reasonable
i
don't
deserve
this
passion
ration ure portions
& serve them accordingly
to those
more
worthy
than me
please
don't do this to me
my belly aches
& trembles
ill
with the thrill
of ure
confections
the gooey glee
& gummy gibe
of ure supple sighs
as i ride the tides of my sensations
elations
indescribable
adulations
undeniable
undulations
uncontrollable
gripping into the seat of this
roller coaster
i bolster my face against ure chest
to rest
from asphyxiation
amazing
rock
paper
scissors
heart
on a dish
steaming
teeming
beaming
idolatry
into my very
lap
i am queasy
in ure
gentle
radiance
how can i eat this
how can i indulge in this
cuisine that bleeds
ure very
being

mmmm..
i have
never felt
so

satisfied

damaged
this
wounded fighter
ravaged
this
lone survivor
scarred
by the promise
of love
steadily
building her fortress
brick
by
brick
sick
from the smell
of her burning flesh
thick as sin
this
2nd skin
she's learning to grow
layer
by
layer
chameleon skinned
blending in
to every background
camouflaging herself
in a blanket of fear
no feel
no deal
no real emotion
can penetrate
alienate herself
from the rest of his world
his directives were clear
"pack up those tears
& head south"
fractured mouth
trying to remember
his kisses
now
she hisses
@ the thought of his body
stop the symphony
the imagery
of his thundering sighs
w/ her blundering thighs
awkward
beside him
he taught her the way
he liked to be swayed
patiently
before searing away her core
dutiful soldier
too pained to ignore
the smoke signals
above her
his lessons were heeded
& she has receded
defeated
into the darkness
to harness the bitterness
that will see her thru
the nites to come
shell shocked
eyes locked
onto the horizon
rising from the rubble
bursting the bubble
of her infantile dreams
overcompensate
retaliate
against the feelings
of loss
he was never
ures
to begin with
be content with
the bandwidth
replaying in ure head
he lulled u to sleep
before u could steal
his heart away

the smell of my
morning waffle
has brought ure smile
wafting
around me
browned
&
warm
i recall ure form
in my strawberries & cream
fresh
&
pink
i like to think
u remember me
too
somewhere under that
syrupy ooze
u used to drizzle
onto my lips
i sip
a recollection of u
brewed
hot
trying not to drink
too quickly
i am wholly
forgiving
all those misgivings
u had of me
finally
the intensity
has subsided
& i am guided
into tranquility
the ability
to ponder u
without pain
i maintain the same position
that fact
is stranger than
fiction
becuz
i still can't catch
my breath
sideswiped by the
unripe emotions
i culled from u
& mulled for u
into a glass of me
u'll never imbibe
i sigh
but comply
to ure wishes
u are
the talented mister ripley
who has simply
erased
the taste
of my lips
too distracted by me
to see
the bigger picture
of love
& compromise
ure wise
to deflect emotions
before they arise
ure attempt to disguise
how
memory
is
strange
an apple a day
to keep me away
hoping
ure absence will make my heart
grow colder
but
i will shoulder
the reminder
of my sweetest september
though u choose to forget
yes
these hands
will remember

forgive me
this
interruption
as i lay
naked
&
wanting
in this
daunting
attempt to
entice u
my company
is costly
& my motives
are mostly
fiendish
by design
u were right
to decline
such a
wasteful
treat
dipped
in deceit
& the obvious
mistreatment of ure
valuable
time
i just wanted
to be
beautiful
in the most
superficial way
i just wanted
to be
desired
in the most
sinister way
i just wanted
to be
the one
to see
ure eyes
wide
yearning
for me
& no one
else
i
was
impulsive
belligerent
destructive
deliberately
trying to
lure u away
from ureself
for a
moment
to be
empty
&
silent
&
tranquil
&
free
oh
such
painful
dissuasion
please
forgive me
this
invasion
as i lay
naked
&
wanting
&
rejected
&
ashamed

my sweetest pout
can never ease
the doubt u carry
inside u
did u
really
expect my lips
to change ure
mind
blind
is how i
follow u
down
onto my knees
buried
beneath the pleas
of ure wounded ego
come
smother ure blackness
deep into my chest
rest assured
i can swallow ure burdens
take me there
wounded son
to the place that bleeds
i want to mend
to heal
to steal away
the pain that keeps u
hidden
let me under ure covers
& whisper to me
w/ scarcely a hair
between us
focus on
my eyes
my voice
my love
my choice
to give them to u
what a fool
to think i could cool
the fury
u burn w/
what a fool
to think
u wanted
me to
i endure the suffer
for a kind word from u
but
silence
is my answer
silence
is my reward
this little whore
w/ her mended ways
knows no sunshine in ure days
i can't refute
i won't dispute
the iniquities i carry
within me
i know them all too well
i long for ure tenderness
i plead for ure gentleness
i can not taste
my joys
w/ out
u
soon
the gloom will fade
& u'll be made
whole again
w/ the passing days
but
how long must i stay
disdained
from the
eyes
that used to hold me
so
enamoured

i trace
ure face
to ease the space
between us
when u go
how
to stop the dawn
from breaking
this charm
we’re making
with every
muffled
sigh
we were
written
in the sky
our story
a tapestry
a history
legendary
defined
by the luminous
stars
enveloped in darkness
we cherish
these moments
in bed
tread
softly
beloved
across the wintry floor
a brisk return
will bring us more
of our
predawn
concerto
a
rhapsody
for two
welding our spirits
fusing our bones
with melodious tones
that quake
within me
long
after u’ve gone
ure
tender
vacancy
leaves me reeling
this chasm
leaves me feeling
too
much
such
unmanageable
days
to come
such
unbearable
rays
of sun
to scorch
this peace
with envious beams
just
WAIT
gather me closer
stroke my hair
collapse around me
strip me bare
extract my essence
i perfume
at ure will
i will blossom
with moonlite
&
hold
time

still

i
am
a pool
majestic blue
waiting
to brand u
let me sink
beneath the ink
that decorates
ure flesh
please
bury me
deeply
my patience is waning
like our time remaining
oh
push
me
in
further
submerged
beneath ure skin
i spread within
fast & furious
enthralled
delirious
enchanted
by ure wicked ways
i am
amazed
at this urgency
to be free of this
body
send me
plunging
swirling
coiling
twirling
w/ pitch
black
want
of u
coursing thru ure veins
i trickle down
into ure thoughts
wrought
w/ white hot
desire
a funeral pyre
set ablaze by ure
smoldering glance
i
dissolve
at ure feet
a primary puddle
colored
w/ subtle hues
that
ooze
that
sink
that
bleed
that
creep
that
flourish
to garnish
ure coat of arms
that sits so well
atop the man
that makes me swell
larger
than
life
beyond myself
a generous wealth
of bejewelled
masculinity
let me swim
ure interior
lost
to relish ure core
w/ no hope
of rescue
w/ no signs
of shore