tounge
tied
terrified
mystified
that u
ever tried
to understand me
at
all
I
HAVE
NO
ANSWERS
i speak
no lies
i can
only cry
within myself
for mercy
do u think
this is easy
i’m sick
i’m queasy
i’m weak
i’m easily
fooled
trampled
wooed
all in
one
breath
GO AWAY
& take ure
distrust
with
u
i can’t convince u
otherwise
i can’t succinctly
surmise
the surprise I felt
when u came

then

left

so
leave me
again
with my shame
my bewilderment
my fame
in being
an overzealous
creature
too
wild
to
pursue
i
mangled my
good intentions
with
misconceptions
of what u
should
& should not
feel
burdened u
w/ foolish ambitions
tedious situations
superfluous
intimidations
all
for
want
of being
MORE
i wanted to be
more
than therapy
more
than coffee
more
than happenstance
more
than circumstance
more
than habit
more
than a tease
i wanted
u
to think
i was
much
MUCH
more
than just

me