my ghost
orchid
my hidden
gem
the
skeleton
that haunts
my deepest
closet
my constant
projection
of perfection
rattling
inflections
of my
shame
my secret
longing
who keeps
belonging
to
another
more worthy
than
i
could
ever be
u
could never
see
how i
came to be
so
painfully aware
i’ll never compare
to the phantom
i used to
be
all
my truths
come back
to u
i am
destined
to drown
destined
to crown
my worthless head
w/ thorns
&
wire
&
scorn
&
fire
&
mournful cries
i have
no alibis
I
FAILED
U
derailed
our
happy union
w/ delusions
of grandeur
w/ another
no picture book
ending
no realities
bending
to suit
my deepest
desires
oh
cherished
one
our glorious sun
has set
never to dawn
again on our
laughter
my
regret
my
remorse
my
shameful
disaster
keeps me
chasing shadows
of our
happily
never
after