i am
swollen
with fear
eyes bulging
understanding
that i
do not
understand
at all
i bawl
w/ out warning
forlorned
swarming
this darkness
buzzing around me
disrepaired
emotions
gathering
like dust in the cracks
of my mind
i awake
beneath the weight
of my thoughts
rank
like spoiled meat
i greet my sadness
wordlessly
oh
tell me more
about ure eyes
but
STOP
SEARCHING
MINE
i’m afraid
of what u’ll find
just let me cry
until the poison
bleeds
out
of me
bruised
shades
of
anguish
welling up
inside
of me
these
ancient
amalgamated distresses
depressing me so
stressing me so
that ure memory blinds me
ure tenderness pains me
like a delicate wound
i ache to soothe
to no avail
i wail
inside myself
howling
to the bluest moon
seeking refuge
in our
forgotten
place
cloaked in silence
i wade thru my darkness
quietly
come
sit by me
& let’s ease the suffer
of endless nite
thru our
imagined
embrace