forgive me
this
interruption
as i lay
naked
&
wanting
in this
daunting
attempt to
entice u
my company
is costly
& my motives
are mostly
fiendish
by design
u were right
to decline
such a
wasteful
treat
dipped
in deceit
& the obvious
mistreatment of ure
valuable
time
i just wanted
to be
beautiful
in the most
superficial way
i just wanted
to be
desired
in the most
sinister way
i just wanted
to be
the one
to see
ure eyes
wide
yearning
for me
& no one
else
i
was
impulsive
belligerent
destructive
deliberately
trying to
lure u away
from ureself
for a
moment
to be
empty
&
silent
&
tranquil
&
free
oh
such
painful
dissuasion
please
forgive me
this
invasion
as i lay
naked
&
wanting
&
rejected
&
ashamed