the tears in my coffee
have soured the cream
i stir the dream
of ure embrace
clockwise
time
dies
slowly
for me
perverting these
impossibilities
into hopeless longings
standing alone
i am left to atone
for my transgressions
trying to swallow
my obsessions for u
in every gulp of
air
i
dared to
tried to
hide u
away from the pain
i remain
sworn to
the need to
hold u againt
his rancid sweetness
curdles in my mouth
along w/ the shape of ure name
how to tame
the demons w/ in me
they say u used me
they say u duped me
into believing
i meant something more
& all the while
this hazelnut smile
& semi sweet mocha chai
boils in my mouth
like a lie
stinging my tongue
my ears have rung
w/ ure frothy exhalations
ure palpitations
pressed
against
my rib bones
no chocolate scones
to absolve me now
the sickly sweet
revolts me now
& how
this starbucks
love struck
wonder guy
puckered up & said goodbye
before
the water
even
boiled
the puddle on the floor
used to have a name
he’ll never utter again
how did i offend him
by trying to blend into
his horizon
i hold myself
up to myself
scrutinizing
memorizing
the lines in my smile
he’ll never
really
see