i burned ure card
to keep me warm
the rising smoke
snaked
all around me
lingering
ghosts of an emotion
u signed it
-L.
-O.
-V.
-E.
i guess i took it
personally
i jumped thru imaginary hoops
i walked thru burning waters
i bled thru empty palms
envisioned stigmata
for the sake of making u
feel
anything
tied u up
in my own despair &
surged
viciously
thru ure veins
they used to call me dangerous
every maladjusted guy’s
dream girl
every normal man’s
mistake
they used to call me
dangerous
now
they don’t call me @all
sitting high
above the wreckage
in my crown of thorns
willing u to call me
thru my thoughts
rehearsing
all of my apologies
for being what i thought
u wanted me to be
i
misunderstood
misheard
misspoke
misplaced
my
match book
again