paint me
delicious
ure
golden apple
ure
pomegranate seeds
i need
to be
devoured
deflowered
of all my
mystery
come back
to me
pluck
from me
the fruits
of my
fervent
desires
the
witching hour
brings to power
the dream
w/in
ure dreams
murmurs
at nite
emerge
in flight
like
ravens
swarming
swooping
calling
to me
the hidden
messages
presages
of a life
still
to
come
s
l
e
e
p
my
mayan
fleshed
dreamer
this ancient
unrest
weighs
on ure chest
heavier
than
i
ever
could
the seeds
are planted
ure wishes
all granted
& i shall be
sown no more
seek no more
weep no more
in sorrowful scorn
i am
re
born
razed
renewed
ripe
in bloom
w/ penance
& pardons

blossoming

for
u

in
our

s
e
c
r
e
t

garden

i
a
wait

sus
pen
ded

in no
thing
ness

my
frag
ment
ed
dis
tress
es

aim
less
con
fess
ions
adrift
in the
midst
of
such
lu
cid
ity

what is
happ
ening
to me

a fly
trap
ped
in honey
& flattery
in
tox
icat
ing
sy
coph
ancy

breath
less
yawn
ing
cavern
ous
long
ing
to
touch
u

eman
cipate
exon
erate
vind
icate
me
with ure
tender
ab
solu
tion

i
a
wait

spell
bound

captive

rapt
in the
mad
ness
of a
wish

we
kiss

*ssssssssssssss

my ghost
orchid
my hidden
gem
the
skeleton
that haunts
my deepest
closet
my constant
projection
of perfection
rattling
inflections
of my
shame
my secret
longing
who keeps
belonging
to
another
more worthy
than
i
could
ever be
u
could never
see
how i
came to be
so
painfully aware
i’ll never compare
to the phantom
i used to
be
all
my truths
come back
to u
i am
destined
to drown
destined
to crown
my worthless head
w/ thorns
&
wire
&
scorn
&
fire
&
mournful cries
i have
no alibis
I
FAILED
U
derailed
our
happy union
w/ delusions
of grandeur
w/ another
no picture book
ending
no realities
bending
to suit
my deepest
desires
oh
cherished
one
our glorious sun
has set
never to dawn
again on our
laughter
my
regret
my
remorse
my
shameful
disaster
keeps me
chasing shadows
of our
happily
never
after

(circa 2003)

PACK
URE
SHIT
& get out
of my mind
i grind my teeth
at the thought
of u
look at me
broken
limp
wounded
hit
twice
by the same arrow
the marrow of my bones
loosened
with grief
I
SEEK
RELIEF
u liar
u thief
i'm tired of
missing u
& ure insecurity
missing u
& ure insincerity
missing u
& ure ability
to fool me
into thinking
i was
special
well
birds of a feather
may fuck together
but two wrongs
don't make
a right
i'm too tired
to fight
my weathered heart
is somber
no spark
to love again
to hurt again
to hope again
that u'll hear me
clearly
between my gasps for breath
so
go
take ure precious
"space"
clear ure precious
"head"
leave me for dead
in this emptiness
follow the
yellow brick road
before u
towards the emerald city
of peace & quiet
without me

happily

here's hoping
no one drops
a house
on u