this little girl
back on her knees again
begging
for her demon's forgiveness
he made her believe
she was better
than them
then wiped his boots
& walked away
it would be blind vengeance
to blame him
for the fanciful dreams
of a whore
in a virgin gown
going
thru
the
motions
playing the part
she never asked for
wishing
she wasn't
so
good
at it
so wide open
she swallowed him
whole
& in her sorrow
she be wed
to herself again
be careful
what u wish for
be careful
who u'd die for
catch ure heart
before
it tumbles
out
of
ure
mouth

why did u
let me
why did u
tempt me
with
levity
& ure
easy going way
ure better at this game
than me
&
i wish
i never
played
i was swayed
to caress
ure ache
i was oblivious
that such
a mistake
would haunt me
still
tattered
hollowed
emptied
swallowed up
by this twister
i was
riding
& u knew it
all along
dirty
little
secret
u asked the questions
i answered w/ my body
u sought me out
of my cavern
of solitude
to
bleed
for
u
i wish
i never
met u
goddess knows
i never meant to
follow u into the desert
but ure eyes
were so sullen
ure laughter
so sudden
like the disaster
that followed
my
lonestar
back at camp
sending smoke signals
of agony
relating his tragedy
to some other
damsel
in
distress
i was dressed
to be bitten by u
it was easy
to be smitten by u
regardless or ure
warnings
the morning sun
sears my flesh
poisoned
by some
rattlesnake
i found
in my bed
though
he never liked
my shade
of red
his
hisses
still
linger

i hate me
cuz i'm beautiful
& all the boys
come into my lite
to die
irresistable
immeasurable
unstoppable
this lure i have for
kind words
& well wishes
warm thoughts
& calm whispers
about other girls
u'd rather be with
but
waste ure dreams on me
oh well
whatever it takes to be a part
a piece
a shadow
a stain
'ure spirit is too brite to hold onto'
now i understand
u just didn't want it
shining on u
'just work it out'
that's right
i'll work it out
in my own way
hiding in the trees
blowing kisses
outside ure window
i'll figure it out
in my own time
under the velvet sky
blowing bubbles
outside ure door
cuz the nite sees all my indiscretions
luna
always cradling me
crying for me
helpless
&
blue
she watches her
pixie child
slough off her skin
& expose her wings
to the flames
of his sun
i will scorch in the cinders
of ure days
&
by nite
she will revive me
rejuvenating my emptiness
dressing me
in her glowing lite
& i will wander
blindly thru
with softest hands
kindest words
biggest eyes
longest lashes
to touch ure heart
gently
before
u turn
away