is this
reaching u
is this the only
avenue
i can go thru
to touch u
how horrible
this betrayal
to be given up
so easily
it freezes me
in places u once warmed
gentle flame
how could this be the way it ends
using scapegoats
in raincoats & muddy boots
to defile all feeling for me
well
hating u is just too easy
instead
i snuff out the candles
just like u taught me
purple
&
green
fused
lumps of wax
perhaps
they understand
what I can not see
empty handed
i entered this
heavy hearted
i centered this
insecurity on me
what
abhorrent insincerity
STOP
URE
EDITING
u demand my honesty
but refuse
to supply ure own
& it's just
NOT FAIR
i’m expected to settle
for thin air
well
been there
done that
but expected more from u
i release u
from all that u symbolized
i concede to
place coins
over my eyes
& bury alive this
heartache
please
forgive my
disorderly conduct
did i obstruct
ure view
w/ my adoration
pity
ure saccharine smile
&
artificial salutations
offer little consolation
from the humiliation
of loving
a dead
phone

watch me change
b4 ure very eyes
into this
creature
so despised
nothing up my sleeves
nothing in my palms
mumbling incantations
invoking songs
that will steal ure breath
til u see no wrong
in my innocent ways
i never warned u
about my eyes
i never told u
u would cry
@ the sight of me
cuz
i wanted to keep u
i wanted to teach u
how
to weep again
be weak again
& seek out the solitude that will hang u
i threw u over the brink
then poured a drink of ure blood
& drank
licking my lips
i must insist u are
devine
sublime
to believe in such a farce
as me
i should have turned u
from the poison
in my smile
but why deny myself the pleasure
of this game
what a shame
u never saw
ure part in it
u should have smelled me coming
& started running
into the abyss
that soothes u
so well
go dwell
in ure torment
it's been dormant
since u met me
it misses u
& wishes u would caress it
the way u stroked
my shoulders
my spoiled fruit
could never suit
ure ways
my radiant lite
could never bite
into u
that super glued armor
was too thick
for me
go
escape while u can
scrape if u can
my touch off of ure skin
i am evil
i am sin
& u'll never win
a moment's peace
beside me
heed me
before I blow it
& show u how
possible
loving me
can really
be

PUT
OUT
URE
LITE
stop trying to guide me
this journey
i have chosen
is mine
alone
u tempt me
w/ security
longevity
immunity
from having to be
me
but my love
is not
a savings bond
don’t lock me up
safe & tite
away from myself
& the nite
& all the possiblities
that await me
ure hypnotic suggestions
feed my obsessions
into believing this was the greatest time
i
never
had
becuz
the moonlite beckons me
the starlite harkens me
back to that
place where i abandoned myself
for u
NOW
I
CHOOSE
to drown myself
in deeper eyes
to seek the unknowable
beyond the skies
this thirst
this hunger
will not subside
with the quiet stains
u leave on ure pillow
at nite
I WANT TO TASTE THE WORLD
& listen to it sigh
to be held
adored
caressed
undressed
w/ no further warranty
no fraudulent guarantee
come the morning
that anything
will last forever
a
kiss
is
still
a
kiss
shared at midnite
revered by dawn
w/ no promises
no longings
no compromises
to share a lifetime
trapped
in
someone else's shadow
i’m not looking for
”forevers”
& his picture in my
locket
i
promise
nothing
&
look forward to the
”moments”
& polaroids in my
back pocket

wrapped
gently
in the velvet cape
of midnite
swooning
marvelously
@ the coo of ure voice
i had no choice but to fall
helpless
guileless
to stop ure tender words from
floating
amidst the ocean
of kisses
sweetest embrace
ravenous chase
to delve deeper into my eyes
let my guise
speak for itself
frozen
between
the dashboard
& ure tears
intense
immense
& wide
these lies
we tell ourselves
that all
will
be
fine
come
the
morning
oh
let me kiss ure temple
as i lean into ure lite
i can not fight
this
longing
to melt into
the best of myself
to show u the safety
u will find
in my arms
i am
lit
a match
embers
burning
sparked by
the timber of ure voice
awakened by
the need to hoist myself up
rearranging my hair
as I dare
to step back
into
the routine of
me
some enchanted evenings
extinguish come the dawn
but
my lips still vibrate
from ure delicate hums
such music
such melody
such richness
such energy
who could have
imagined
u would have
such
smart
hands

i can not
speak
w/ ure eyes burning
that way
incinerating
all hope
& possibilty
between
u & me
i stand
brooding
in my unshakable cloud
of patchouli & guilt
wilting
my petals beneath
ure scorching brow
i
bow
to ure kindess
i
bend
to ure softness
swayed by the way
u say my
name
why don’t u speak
more goodness to me
sweetest friend
w/ the compassionate
soul
searching it deeply
for the meaning
of this
intrusion of ure space
my face
was made
to lay
beside ure own
look
at these lips
parted
thwarted
smarted
from uttering amiable lies
like butterflies
rising from their hidden places
fanciful traces
of what i don’twant u to know
honesty is thebest policy for
turning myself
inside out
heart strings
exposed for the binding
but
ure glare is blinding
me
from feeling u
w/ eyes lowered
i will abstain from furthering
this senseless pain
i have caused u
blame it on this drink
our
bubbly concoction
of time & desire
which has kept me
drunk
spilling kisses
all over
myself