frozen
in this quiet
stillness
captivated
by ure
state of grace
please
keep humming
to me
the history of how
this came to be
this
unexpected
immobility
that
entangles me
when ure near
me
oh
i can’t move
ure heart beating
against my cheek
ure sweet breath
tenderly weaving
thru my hair
it makes me
weak
to feel u there
beneath my face
so
still
is it possible
that i am flying
airborne
vibrating so fast
that the air around me
is tripping
exploding
stripping
these moments between us
into specks of dust
that land softly
about ure face
to linger
there
closer
as i long
to be
closer
immersed
absorbed
inhaled
adored
by ure bassoon like
voice
droning into my ears
until they bleed
with honeyed melody
i want
to sing
along
“our song”
to be heard
only by us
lines written by moonlite
pulsating with the tranquil
thoughts
of what
will be
come
sing
for me
my lashes will keep time
my fevered cheeks will shine
while ure faithful pulse
engulfs our
melodious
rhyme

with

such

delicious

music

i went to lick my wounds
& i noticed
they were gone
funny
i never thought i'd see the day
i'd be so
unaffected
by the thought of u
what would normally send me to bite my lip
doesn't send me
at all
these scabs are soft
paper thin
thin enuff to see thru
i know if i tear it away
there u'll be
all over again
with ure charms
all over again
those pearly whites
all over again
my fear would rise
all over again
so
i stare at this
new growth
nothing like the spine i wanted for xmas
but
i think i like it
almost like
a happy addition to the family
almost like
a welcomed friend to my home
almost like
the pain u caused never was
almost like
there were no other girls
almost like
ure kisses were real
almost like
i've let go of the lies
almost like
my sex wasn't wasted
almost like
i forgave ure abandonment
almost like
almost like
almost like
i'm bleeding
all
over
again

leave the money
on the table
u know
the way
out
i promise not to pout
when u finally
go
i know
u'll be back for more
with every passing day
with every small exchange
i root deeper
into u
embedded
into u
like some fabled thorn
to be sucked out of ure paw
with my generous mouth
that still tastes the salt
of ure body
funny
what
lingers behind
after the sweat
after the limbs are no longer entwined
with each other
maybe
some other
time
right now
u must leave
right now
i concede
not to follow u
home
ure passing fancies
are unpredictable
who knows if u'll ever call
who knows if u'll ever fall
into my embrace
again
"a friend"
no
i can't call u that
it sends
a mournful knot
into my stomach
at the thought of such
lies
we
improvised
each moment
prolific
with miscommunications
misinterpretations
of each other's
desires
inspired by loneliness
driven by need
we greedily feed
on each other's
hunger
no wonder
ure nauseous
no wonder
ure cautious
as fickle
as they come
as doubtful
as my tounge
which splits
in two
which speaks
to u
even after
my taste
has left
u

why the long
face
he never loved
u
trace back the mistakes
that keep u awake
all nite
& all signs point
to
u
ure wishing
& hiding
can not undo
the chiding
& suffering
u put ureself
thru
there is no going back
to
empty
what is this
foolish desire
to be wanted
what is this
innate fire
to be hunted
by wounded creatures
who
seek
ure
comfort
only to bite the hand
that feeds them
well
who are u
to judge
ure holding a grudge
for the very experience
u
created
be
sated
with being alone
elated
for having gone
the extra
mile
no one else would have gone
always the fool
stepping off the brink
happy to drink
whatever morsel
is offered
they use u
u know
they force u to go
out on a limb
then chop it down
for kindling
simple
child
follow the trail
of breadcrumbs
back to the nest
rest assured
even the crows
don't want u
now
u
are
free
to self destruct
free
to interrupt ure
piteous pleas
for his forgiveness
he's
not
listening
anymore