the darkest
corners
of ure mind
i want to exist there
like a dirty secret
u can't bring ureself
to think about
@ the inhale
of ure deepest sigh
i want to come in
like a strong breeze
tears the petals from
dandelions
it gives me no greater
pain
than to think of u
except
to look at u
knowing
what I see behind ure eyes
is vacant
ure words
like wreckage
implode
cough up dust & mire
& iniquities
that u could never bear
this double
this doppelganger
which stand before me
is souless
wordless
blameless
for ure cowardice
i want to wrap my tounge around ure heart
& make it listen to me
hold u captive in a ray of lite
& make u speak truth to me
that sliver of emotion
that remains between us
is what i will send
for u
& it will crouch
alongside the walls
seep into ure saliva
whisper in ure sleep
until
u awake
& behold
ure own image
in the mirror
void eyes
filled
muddy tears
flowing
whole soul
soaring
high above the shell of ure body
ages beyond the present
to a place
where i sit
& await
ure return

how can i do
this
how can i be
this
deliberately mindless
spiritually spineless
empty
with u
the good times are killing me
this
casual dexterity
ure ample ability
to amputate
heart
from
hand
i don’t understand
how
to
do it
ure mastery
eludes me
the mystery
intrigues me
i know i want more
i know i see more
trouble down the road
if i continue this
vacant
rambling
scrambling out the door
before the truth precedes me
i need
to feel
real
& not
like a score
share my wit
share my time
share my dreams
my sublime necessity
to be adored
floored
by emotion
how do i sever
this thrill
that binds us
this lust
that blinds us
to the sunshine calling outside
i ride the passions
& take the rations
left by the door
only to ignore
my kinder self
I
WANT
ME
BACK
i can’t redact
my desire for u
i won’t deny
my wanting u
my mouth was true while kissing u
but
this ache
affords me
no happy mercy
for not being who i truly am
tender
generous
siren
temptress
& so much more
than u will ever
understand
our collision
was marvelous
but the time has come
to drink in the sun
adjust my seat
& trail the miles

between

u

&

me